I wept for you throughout the night –
Your breath is here no more;
The prime of your life, no prize for you –
You longed for heaven’s door.
No joy, it seemed, in simple things –
Your hopes strewn all over the place
Despondent, slipping – you tried to overcome…
Now I’m haunted by your face.
Others I’ve known, left the very same way;
Their parting, they felt was a need –
My life forever altered the day I learned it;
Do you know how you made our hearts bleed?
Your loved ones are broken now;
In full-blown emotion, they wonder what they could have done;
But there’s nothing that could have barred you from death
Once the dark journey had begun.
Others may wish they took your place
So you could live out your years –
But you were so troubled – noone could come in;
You hid your anger and tears.
I feel for the family you left behind –
Do you know what they must now face?
A life without you; torment on repeat –
None could ever take your place.
I pray that they will live with purpose,
Rising above the ocean of pain-
I hope that there will come a day
When they can laugh and sing again.
You didn’t realise how many you touched
Just by living the years you were here;
They all wish they could see you again
And tell you that you were held dear.
Farewell, in sorrow – we’ll not smile today;
Our grief is much to bear –
But you, in your absence, have hastened us all
To let others know we care.
© M.R. Patterson 16.4.21