I’ve come to the end of my strength; Will, nor circumstance enough- My best not amounting to anything much; I’m doing it really tough. I tell myself that, one day “this” Or one day, maybe, “that”; But I keep falling on the floor Where once, I calmly sat. And he’s not here- he’s in pain- in there- The one who made me calm; Everything is not alright, Causing great alarm. I’ve had faith, and faith some more- I know there’s greater good; But right now I just need to cry; Never mind what I “should”. Knowing the weakness of one so strong, Has shaken me to the core; Sitting up in the early hours wheezing; I could take no more. Not even the primary care giver- Just one who cares for so many; I felt guilty making little complaints, And felt I shouldn’t have any. The last time that I saw his face He faced the other way as I left; I had to shake off that metaphor, As inward, the doubts have crept. Lockdown pending, I had to visit him promptly- And so glad I did that day; Never did I expect he’d have weeks of isolation, Or that I’d have to stay away. My own body failed me, right when I wanted To be a dependable support; I know though, it was appreciated- Every prayer and thought. And when my hands were tied the most, I realised it’s not my story; All of these struggles with greater purpose, When gone through, will bring Him glory; Yet right now I sit, tears close to the surface, Wondering if I’ll be strong for the fight; And this time it’s not Dad’s reassurance- It’s God saying, “You’ll be alright!”. Never truly alone in this world, His help will remain with me- No more striving - only rest, As trusting in Him is the key.
I am a wife and a mother of two beautiful and spirited young children, living in Australia. I am a loving, sensitive soul, drawn to people from all walks of life. Unashamedly, I am a follower of Christ; He is my daily hope and inspiration- the reason that I live and the one I give the glory to. I enjoy dabbling in a range of hobbies including writing, playing piano, singing, gardening, cooking craft and nature walks. Life has presented many challenges to me but always, I find that God's power is made perfect in my weakness. He has impressed upon me to share my experiences to encourage and inspire others. Every day is a page in the story He is writing.
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